Back again!

Okay, so I disappeared for a few days.

Nothing much happened. I sat around, watched more TV, and saw a few movies.

I saw "We Own the Night" and that was good! I love Mark Whalberg. It's out now, so run over and check it out.

I'm hoping maybe to get a game system soon. At least then I can do something besides watch TV, movies, and read.

There are so many reality shows here. I really didn't know that. Wow. It drives me crazy. Thank goodness my parents have 9,000,000 channels, so I don't have to watch reality all day. LOL.

Yeah, I think that I'll go take a nap now. I've been listening to music and reading, and on the internet the whole day. Time for a rest rest. Zzzzzzzzzz...

Well, today was not a bad day to be a cripple. It rained most of the day, and I watched the drops wash the bay window. The traffic outside was not too bad. I imagined there would be at least one accident on the block as it is a busy street, but no such incident.

I saw another great foreign movie. This one was Japanese. I've got to admit that I'm a big fan of anime, so Japanese cinema piqued my interest to begin with, but as I've only seen live action films from Kurosawa, the one I saw today was great. It was a bit like Kill Bill, but more stylized and retro. I think it could fall into the category of action films that appeal to girls. Maybe I'm totally out of line with that assumption/observation. Check it out though: Tokyo Drifter

Today was Valentine's Day, and I did get a dozen roses from my boyfriend (I love international florists) and some yummy chocolates from Papa.

I read some literary theory books Papa checked out for me from the University, but I can't say as I was (or ever have been) impressed with PoMo lit theory. I'm more about the dead guys. Call me weird...

So I finally heard from my grandpa C. today, and I guess more shit is going on with grandpa P. so they've gone off to New Zealand. Hey, if it solves some problems, then go to Zimbabwe. I just hope grandpa P. gets the help he needs.

Yeah, so sitting here, writing, reading, watching DVDs all day isn't so bad. It's just the having to do that everyday part that sucks. You always want what you can't have.

NOOOO!!! Arthouse Movies!

Be careful what you wish for.
I guess my whining got to Dad, so he got out his DVD collection. They're all foreign or arthouse movies! ARG!
I love foreign films, but I can't read the subtitles, since they're too far away for me to see. At least one of the three movies I watched today was cool. (And it was DUBBED!)
Fanny and Alexander
Otherwise, I'm still bored.
Dear God,
Could you make more Dubbed foreign films? Ok, thanks.
Good news? It's lunchtime, and I'm gonna have a good hearty American sandwich. (There are still some things I miss).

TV Sucks in the US

Ok, having lived for the past 10+ years in UK. I am totally out of touch with US TV. But from what I remember before, it sucks now.
I'm very bored. I wonder how I ever survived living in the respite home after my Dad sent me there. That's why it scares me to be here. I just keep thinking I'm going to get sent back there.
I know my Dad loves me, but I feel vulnerable without my grandpas.

Meanwhile... Back At The Manor...

So I heard from my grandpa C. today. He says that I can't come home for about a month, but he'll make sure he rewards me for being stuck here. It seems that my other grandpa, grandpa P. accidentally overdosed on his painkillers. Nice. He's got an addiction problem, so I'm not surprised. Then again, I'm rather pissed off that he chose to be stupid and take too many. But, then again, I don't think he knows any better. And I'm not letting him off the hook, I just don't think he's mentally capable of taking responsibility. I think grandpa thinks he's being responsible, but he's feeding the addiction. Anyway, he's in an outpatient rehab program right now, and everyone thinks it's best if I just stay here with my parents. There are only so many hours I can watch TV a day. There is nothing to do. I've gone through the entire internet and reached the end... TWICE. Any suggestions on how to have fun?

Stuck in the US

Ok, after much whining and pestering, my Grandpa C. will NOT let me come home at the moment, for whatever reason. Needless to say, I'm confused. Nor is this the first time I suspect something's going on, and I am to be kept in the dark about it. Either way, I'm not happy here. There's a reason why I don't live here with my Dad. He obviously resents me. It's painful for him to even look at me. This is not fair to me, nor is it fair to him. I reiterated this to my Grandpa, and he said I just need to wait it out. Well, I'm bored as all hell, because I don't get taken outside (this happens to pariahs, you know) and I decided to start a blog. This seemed like fun at the time, but I find it's more work than I expected. Additionally, I feel very tired and have a headache of sorts, which I attribute to both the construction of the blog, as well as not being able to eat right since I've contracted some sort of stomach malady (which sucks because I've just gotten off my ng-tube, and don't want to have another one inserted). I just want to go home to my grandparents. I miss them like all hell.